Saturday, August 31, 2013

One Year

A lot can change in just a year.  I know that to be true now, more than ever.  Tomorrow will make exactly one year since the day I walked into the Wilson emergency room having abdominal pain, only to be having emergency surgery just a few hours later to remove a ruptured tumor and my left ovary.  

One year that I've been fighting this terrible cancer.  So much can happen in just a year.  Two major surgeries, twenty-one rounds of chemotherapy, countless trips to see so many different doctors, all in just a year's time.  I can't even explain all the emotions I've experienced in just this past year.  Shock, sadness, anger, happiness, even just being completely numb at times.  From feeling like I was on top of the world when I finished my first go around with chemo and thought I ha beat this cancer, to that moment of shock and numbness when I found out my fight is not yet over.  It's been an emotional rollercoaster. 

It's amazing to think about the difference a year can make.  I've learned so much in just a short year and I sure have changed.  I've learned to appreciate all the small things and to never take anything for granted.  I've learned how people can come together to help someone they love.  I've learned to appreciate the most important people in my life who will always be there for me no matter what. 

If anything, this battle that I'm going through has changed me for the better.  I've grown as a person and I've learned to just take things day by day and be thankful every morning that I wake up.  My fight isn't over yet and I know I'll still face obstacles day in and day out, but I hope I continue to have the support system I've had and I know I can accomplish anything.  I don't know where my journey will take me next but I'm accepting it with open arms.